Thursday, April 13, 2006
Good morning people. Today is a new day, I must be happy. Well im going to tp to change specs later, with wc. Hopefully they can confirm earlier. No contacts, mum says ): Nvm, wich and i will get them soon. Chatted with lesbian over the phone ytd, it was great. And funny. She made me high, but only for a while. Zw came home late ytd, and called my dad's phone and we chatted but well I was quite tired and low so i kept quiet most of the time. Thought i was going to doze off, so i decided to put down the phone. Wanted to call jas back, but Zw said she said that she was going to sleep alr. Oh wells. I was so lonely ytd. Called wich, then she had another line. So i decided to hang up. Slept at eleven plus. So early, huh? Realised that girls are more emotional and sensitive after all. Some people just dont get it.
Jenny said, Fion, although you look like you're happy, that you've gotten over it, wo zhi dao ni xin li shi zhong fang bu xia. You're still hanging on, fion. And it was then that I realised, she's the one who knows me inside out all along. Oh man, i was touched. I love you jenny, truck loads. She said we're on the same boat. And that set me thinking. I realised that we have alot in common, that we're emotional and sensitive, and though we try to forget about it, though we try to act normally, it just isnt working.
And that Zw huh, when i told him this he was like, ya i know. anyone can tell, cause of what i always tell him. Maybe the only ones who know me are you two and mich. I just cant believe it <3 The person whom I keep hoping will care about me, doesnt know me at all.
I said you used me as a stepping stone, but you still dont know it's you
But i still care. I really do.
It's a beautiful disguise.